Think about where you are. Do you want to stay there? Where do you want to go? Where are you trying to end up?
When I was younger I liked getting gifts, didn't think about giving them too much. As I got older I grew cynical and was anti-holiday spirit. Now I have a bit more nuanced view.
If you think you're one person I've got news for you, you're not. Better to make friends and get to know those other sides so you can work together.
I've struggled with addiction, and the only way I know how to beat it is by shining the light of reason on the shadows of thoughtless patterns.
The only way to grow is to test the waters, try things out, see what works and what doesn't. Yes you'll fall, and stumble, and make a fool of yourself, but that's okay as long as you can look at those tumbles with an honest eye with improvement on your mind.
It's so easy to become distracted, but the more you try and do at once the less you'll accomplish.
You, as a human, are in the incredible position to decide what forces you want to let flow through you: choose wise.